Results are out. Disappointed. I hate assignment based subjects. My straight A record, gone. However, thank God that my scholarship should still continue, and though results have finally evaded me, but all things work together for good.
Yeah, keep telling yourself that Matt. Bleargh…
I’m bored. Someone send me a lifeline. Lets go for a drink. xD
Matt
College was okay today. Spent lunch hour at Kota Damansara having lunch, and the rest of the lunch hour at Danial’s place, hanging out. Just gonna have a short movie review. Watched this yesterday…
Meet The Spartans.
No, I didn’t watch this in the cinemas. Dad bought the DVD for some reason, and we ended up watching this movie, and commenting the whole movie throughout, on how lame people can be. If you watched 300, this is an insult to the movie. There were hilarious scenes, but it really was too lame to bear.
Verdict: 3/10
First time I’m giving such a low score for a movie, but I hate to admit it, this movie was really downright lame, and boring. Don’t even buy the DVD, cause it ain’t worth it.
Just came back from OU with family. Had dinner at Yoshinoya and went to watch Jumper. It was the second time for me. Was supposed to watch Ah Long Pte. Ltd, but it was 18PL and they wouldn’t let my brother in. What dimwits! Even with my dad objecting that he was going in with his parents, they refused to oblige. Bleah…
Anyway, so much for that. I’m extremely tired, and still sorta recovering from a horrible weekend, with a few aches here and there obtained from futsal. Jogging at 7.30am tomorrow, and I’m so lazy to do my Financial Accountings homework. Maybe tomorrow…
Matt
I hope this clouds pass soon. I hope this tunnel ends soon. At least I know there are no more lies, and facing the facts that I’m weak, and that I’m vulnerable and consciously understanding the way things are, thus ends my life of lying to myself that everything is okay when I know its not.
A better week. A better life. A better present and even better future.
Matt
After what happened yesterday, its hard imagining how things are going to be like. I don’t understand how responsibilities can have a way of bringing me down. Its too much for me, definitely too big for me. Was definitely a wrong time to come to clash about such a topic.
Woke up to the nightmares of the previous night, and understood that the very cracks that I’ve been trying to cover up were being exposed, and by yesterday, they had cracked, and it was as if the dam burst and all the pain and hurts I ever knew came back yesterday ever so real.
I can’t remember when I’ve felt so disappointed, so unloved, so unappreciated, so unnoticed, and so unwanted; yet carrying so much responsibility, related with so many people, and doing all the work alone. Almost every single person I’ve looked to yesterday, has disappointed me in every possible motion.
I guess you can never really run very far from the past. Just when I thought I had buried the hatchet, and the ‘coffin’ that went with it, the skeleton appeared in my closet again. Lying to myself finally exposed my very vulnerability, and for all its worth, crucified every part of me and decapicitated me for all the mobility in the world. I won’t lie to myself anymore, and for once, just get away and move on. Always wondered what would happened when I realized the lies I was telling myself.
I need to stop thinking about you, but since when has that happened? No more lies. No more pretense. No more deceptions. No more facades. No more lingering HOPE; and by this, I’ll prove to myself that I am really strong when I kill HOPE. Perhaps the very reason I can’t ever face you. It seemed like a long time ago, but I remember it like yesterday.
Its time to start over, and build a new barricade with no cracks. I’m not strong enough, and already, it feels like the end of the world all over again. Dear God, I really need Your help.
Matt
First up, a very very Happy Birthday to my lil sis. May all you have many more years to come, and stay the awesome girl you are. I know my prezzie isn’t much, but its the least I can do. = )
I had jogging again, and my stamina kinda reduced today. Oh well, at least I burned some fats. Really gotta start jogging even more. Classes today sucked. My research topic has to be changed again, no thanks to Mr. Gideon “fussy” Looi.
Its just a 3000 word methodology, but yet, its already getting to me. Most of my assignments and presentations are due at the end of April and May. Hopefully, I can pass it all up before the end of April.
Liverpool have drawn Arsenal in the quarterfinals of the Champions League. How interesting. Will be a good clash of the titans.
Looking forward to the weekend. This is Matt, signing off.
Matt
Coincidence isn’t determined by chance or luck, but rather circumstances created to teach us lessons of life – Matt
Today, college was pretty interesting. Okay, I lied. How my whole day went was interesting. Went for classes at 11am, and we then went off to Ikea for lunch.
Ikea’s famed Swedish meatballs. I must say, I miss eating it. Its been a long while.
After lunch, we went to Yan’s house and watched 28 Weeks Later. Will do a movie review at the end of this post. Went off to Chandran’s class late 15 minutes, only to sit down for another 20 minutes before he dismissed class extremely early. Went back to Yan to continue with movies, before we went off for dinner at Sri Hartamas.
We went to SOULed OUT for dinner, and the food wasn’t that bad. It was affordable in a sense, but yet pricey in another sense. Haha, ignore me. I’m contradicting myself.
Char-broiled Chicken.
Bumped into Shane and his buddies over at SOULed OUT as they were celebrating one of their birthday. Went over to Breakers to check out the place, before we went back to Yan’s place and here I am.
I’ve another session of jogging tomorrow, with the girls joining us tomorrow as well. How interesting.
A candid picture taken by Yan. She was fiddling with her phone, for some reason.
Anyway, here’s the movie review.
28 Weeks Later.
It was okay, though I still prefer the other ‘zombie’ related movies, such as I Am Legend and Resident Evil. The plot was there, but other than that, it was just your average movie full of blood and killings.
Verdict: 5/10
Eu Jin’s coming to stay over for a few days before he goes off to Penang for his much needed break. This weekend is gonna be interesting, with loads of stuff to do. Looking forward to it. = )
Matt
I’m bushed. Had breakfast with Adam, Yan and Gloria again at Uptown before going for classes, at Yan’s house for lunch break, back for Maniam’s class on flexible budgets and what-nots.
Had football under the rain, before heading back home. So yeah, I’m tired. Anyway, today, SPM results came out, and I would like to congratulate those who did well, especially those who I know have good results.
Congrats to Khye-Ren! Don’t be so worried about it kay? = )
Just about to head off to prayer meeting, but thought I do a post first. Its funny how the circle of friends blend in with the circle of life. It happens ever so frequently. From best friends to just a friend, from friends to acquaintances, and from acquaintances to “hi-bye” friends. Its sad, but it happens.
Well, I guess life has a way of keeping you too busy, and there are times when I have to start redefining who stays to play an important role in my life, and who just deserves to walk away just like that…
Sadly, thats life…
Matt
Listening to: Bubbly – Colbie Caillat
This song is really addictive. Well, not like it means anything now, but it certainly suits the emotional phase. Excuse me for being sentimental, but the song is really sweet. Cheesy I know, but heck, I love it. = )
Another session of jogging tomorrow. Assignments are slowly picking up, and well, life is starting to get more and more complicated. Interesting ain’t it?
Matt
Its been an incredible week. No, nothing big happened to me, but there were BIG stuffs going on around Malaysia. As it is, I went jogging on Friday before classes, went for cell group that night. On Saturday, I went for badminton, had worship practice, and spent my entire night on the PS 2.
Today was an equally tiring day. I got offended countless times today, but yet, today’s sermon was a great reminder about Romans 8:28; For all things work together for GOOD to those who love Him and are called according to His purposes. Talk about grumbling and murmuring, I definitely have to live this 1 out.
Well, I shall be offended as much as possible then, as long as it builds character. Somehow, just can’t help being “carnally minded” and the thought of hitting back. I’ll let God be the judge.
Elections have just been over, and boy, this year was I more into it than usual. There is gonna be a huge wind of change coming, and as frightening as it may seem (cause change can sometimes be that way), I’m actually pretty excited about all this new stuff. Almost the whole west coast of Peninsular Malaysia has been taken over by none other than…
Democratic Action Party
The political arena in Malaysia will never be the same again. The elections this time round were indeed shocking, as a few of the ‘regulars’ were ousted. Unfortunately, I was born a year too late, or I would have been able to contribute my single vote (like it would even matter). xD Well, I hope for the best, and hopefully, there will be no fightings or killings anymore.
I’m extremely tired, and I’ve not done my homework yet, and classes start at 9am tomorrow. Looks like another early alarm tomorrow morning. So much for catching up on sleep.
I miss my college buddies. I don’t know who to miss anymore. I miss God. I guess there are times when I look at things, and realize that the friends who are too close, can sometimes step on your tail without them knowing it. There’s a very thin line between a joke, and offending someone. At least He taught me something really significant today. This was what I learned…
“Sometimes, you’re put into the most difficult of situations, or circumstances that you never taught could happen to you, just to test you to the limit, that you indeed will have passed the test, and moved on.”
It is indeed from experience, where I am in a situation I NEVER thought could happen, and it was deemed as a “worst case scenario” for me. However, I’ve learned to depend on Him, and be strong in order to face the past. I’m happy to say, that the past will play absolutely NO role in bringing me down. Thank God for Him. = )
~Sometimes, to love means to let go~
~Loneliness is most felt when being lonely in the midst of people~
Hope for a better week, and cheers to you.
Matt
PS: God loves every single one of you. You better know that. = )
It amazes me how my lil brother can be so incredibly arrogant and rude at times. Younger siblings, sorry to say this, but please do give some respect to your elder siblings. Its tough handling you guys. Even harder gaining respect. You have no idea what a massive task it is to always live up to the pressure of being the eldest.
Maybe I do not know what its like to be the youngest, but that doesn’t justify one’s actions in disrespecting the elder. I need to release some stress and tension. Boxing anyone?
My brother’s a blockhead.
End of story…
Matt
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